"Ramblings of a Searcher" was first written and published December 2013 to my web site, http://dutchesshorton.com/ramblings.html and I believe it is a fitting introduction to my attempts at blogging. It tells you a little of who I am and what I feel God is leading me to do. Yes, I am God's Girl and I pray everything I write will in some way draw you to be His too.
It’s been such a long time since I’ve sat at my computer and just let the Holy Spirit speak to me and through me. But for days now He’s been calling out to me; reminding me who I am and whose I am; reminding me that I have purpose inside of me; reminding me that He has plans for me, but He will not force me.
It’s been a couple of years now that the Lord gave me a scripture to summarize the ministry He’s called me to. It comes from Isaiah 50:4 (KJV) “The Lord God hath given me the tongue of the learned, that I should know how to speak a word in season to him that is weary…” The Lord God hath given me the tongue of an encourager and an edifier. (There is a difference but we won’t get into that right now.) Part two of that verse says, “…he wakeneth morning by morning, he wakeneth mine ear to hear as the learned.” Or as the NIV reads, “…He wakens me morning by morning, wakens my ear to listen like one being instructed.” And herein lays my problem.
I love to sleep and rest and relax. I could truly spend an entire week or longer doing absolutely nothing. Everyone except my immediate family probably finds that really difficult to believe but it’s true. Even worse, I’m not ashamed. I could go days on end doing no more that playing Solitaire Arena of Facebook. Of course, I’d mix in a few rounds of Candy Crush Saga because they actually make you wait 15 minutes between games of Solitaire Arena (unless you want to pay for magic wands – not). I flip channels on the television and nap and am completely content. Well almost content. Because the entire time I’m busy doing nothing, the Holy Spirit is gently but oh so firmly calling; wakening me morning by morning like one being instructed. He won’t leave me alone and I’m so grateful.
I don’t fully understand this season I’m going through but I know in time God will reveal it and will use it for my good and His glory. I posted once before that I was stuck on stupid but I thought I’d gotten off that merry-go-round. Apparently I got back on because I’m going around and around and around yet again. Pray with me won’t you as I open my ears to hear what the Spirit is saying. I no longer want to be content doing nothing or running in useless circles on my stupid-wheel. I want to be about my Father’s business. I realize that the days are getting short and I, like my Father, wish that none would perish but that all would come to repentance. Let no one be lost because I was not doing what I was supposed to be doing. In fact, as you pray for me, look at yourself and be sure you too are doing what our Father has called us to do.
Pray with me now: Father God in Heaven, holy is your name. We come to you today, Father God, first of all to say thank you for not allowing us to die in our sins; for giving us another day to get right with you. I thank you, Father, for the assurance that Jesus died for me and that my place in Heaven with you is secure. But I also thank you that just going to Heaven is no longer my goal. I want to take as many souls with me as I can. Stir up the gifts in me and in those who now pray with me so that we may be about your business. That we may go about doing good, letting our good works shine that people may see and glorify you. Even as our souls are satisfied let us not be so content that we sit down on the calls on our life. We are chosen in Christ. May we make every effort to make our calling and election sure. In Christ Jesus we pray, amen.