Sharing the Journey

I’m currently sitting in my hotel room at the 151 st setting of the General Baptist State Convention of North Carolina, Inc. with the setting sun shining through my window overlooking an empty pool. My roommates have gone out to get dinner and I’m supposed to be finishing up a program for my sister in Christ. But it’s really quiet so I turned to YouTube for background noise. That’s where I got caught up. I’m listening to Tauren Wells sing Known.  I listened to it this morning before going down to the worship service and lyrics touched a chord deep inside my spirit. I shared just a few days ago how I’d lost a bit of the intimacy I’d once shared with my Jesus. (We’re good again now though.) Well, this song articulates one of the things that drew me close to Jesus in the first place – the fact that I’m fully known and loved by Him. As Tauren says, “It’s not one or the other. It’s hard truth and ridiculous grace to be known – fully known and loved by you.” Think about that ...

Well, it appears I’m back from my self-imposed hiatus. I once loved to write; couldn’t help but write. Then I published a book . It was not at all what I thought it would be – though honestly, I don’t know what I thought it would be. I was just trying to be obedient to the call of God. Like Peter, I clearly heard Him say, “Come.” And I did. I came out of hiding and writing only for my enjoyment and the small group that would hear me do an occasional poem at church. But, again like Peter, I took my eyes off Jesus and began to sink. Unfortunately, unlike Peter, I didn’t immediately cry out, “Lord, save me.” I floundered around trying to save myself, growing weaker with each dip beneath the surface of the water, listening to folks standing safely on the shore screaming, “Girl, you can do this. You are good. You don’t need them telling you what to do. You got this.” I believed the hype. All the while, Jesus is standing by patiently waiting for me to cry out to Him and ask Him for help...